Iām currently listening to Beloved by Yiruma whilst typing up this review (please check out Tilleās A Wish for Us Spotify playlist, itās pretty amazing!), and as Iām listening I can literally feel my heart beating faster and harder with every key stroke, as I rethink āspecialā moments in the book.
A Wish for Us, has had me a little conflicted, after reading it, I felt a little flat, and was a 3.5 star (stay with me here, this is the longest review I’ve written in over a year). Nearly all of my friends said they cried solid from 60%, I didnāt, so what was wrong with me, was I emotionless, did I have a heart, I know thatās not true, firstly Iām living and breathing, secondly come on I cried from 3% solid during ATBK, and had ink etched into my skin forever, however digressing , 91% in to A Wish for Us, my emotion found me āI found life hard, Bonnie. Every day, when I took a breath, I felt like I was breathing in tar. Every step I took was walking in quicksand. I had to keep moving or I would be pulled under. I fought it. But the truth was, I wanted to sink. I wanted to close my eyes and disappear and stop the fight. The fight to want to live, when for as long as I could remember, all Iāve wanted is to let go.ā Jesus those words, powerful! Easton you sonofabitch you broke me! I didn’t cry, I wasn’t a balling mess, but my heart stopped beating as I savouried every word of that note, and it’s resonated deep in my soul.
You canāt escape the emotion and pain of Bonnieās journey, Tillieās words throughout the whole book were touching, emotional, haunting and utterly beautiful. āSome are not meant for this life for too long. A fleeting glimpse, a silent birdsong. Souls too pure, they burn out to bright, Bodies so fragile, losing the fight. Hearts lose their beats, rhythms too slow, Angels they come, itās time to go.ā .
But it was Cromwell that I was drawn to whilst reading, Iām 41 years old, Iāve studied music, I can play instruments, I read and write, I understand layers, symphonies and also love a bit of EDM (again check out the playlist, itās killer!) but Iāve never heard of Synesthesia. Now Iāve spent endless hours since finishing A Wish for Us, reading up on synesthetes and synesthesia, totally opened my eyes, and has given me a newfound appreciation or seeing the world through someone elses eyes. Now if only I could find a synaesthesia exhibition. āWith colors in your soul that you let me see too.ā
Bonnieās love and loss had you feeling right along with her, and as I reflect back on the book, reliving paragraphs, chapters, words, scenes, I realise what to me initially felt flat, was turning into something special, a book much like A Thousand Boy Kisses, that will stay with you, one that youāll remember, not necessarily for the romance between Cromwell and Bonnie, but for the words, the meaning, the message.
A Wish for Us, has taken root, and grown on my soul, and what initally started out to be a 3.5 star (equals good), 5 days later, much thought provoking, Google researching and reminiscing has blossemed into a solid 5 stars, and captured my heart!
Whilst I love Tillieās serial books, I really hope you keep writing YA standaloneās with the same raw emotion, as you really do create masterpieces!
Stargazing (Orchestra Version) ā Kygo, Justin Jesso, Bergen Philharmonic Orchestra ā TOP FAVOURITE!
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